Had an altercation with a coworker. Got myself all worked up… Then took that stress out on myself with some classic EDBs. I feel like I’m going to have some problems tonight and I’m legitimately scared of the thoughts going through my head.Β 

I’ve been sitting at my desk for almost 6 hours now and have gotten no work done.. none whatsoever.Β 

I’m supposed to go out with Syma after work, but I don’t think I should… But I also really don’t want to be alone right now.Β 

I’m an adult. These are childish problems. Grow up Em.

Dear Diary, I can’t sleeeeep

The sound of inhales through my stuffy nose is like gusts of wind through cracks in windows and door gaps. It’s keeping me awake, but no more so than the clicking sound of your grinding teeth. I can feel your jaw moving back and fourth against my chest, almost in time with the up and downward motion as i breathe in and out.
I’m considering softly waking you up to save your jaw, but your breathing is getting deeper and fuller and you look kind of peaceful finally sleeping. And I know it’s not something you’re allowed so often.
Even though I can feel your body relax into mine, and your muscles loosen, I can tell you’re not completely out yet. Every so often you return to your body with a jolt, and you’ll unconsciously run your fingertips down my shoulder and back, then pull me closer into you.
I like it. Even on frustrating nights like this when I can’t sleep, you make me happy to be here, right where I am, all tangled up in sheets and arms. I feel safer than I’ve felt in a long time, and I really value that, it’s incredibly special.